Mar. 24th, 2017 10:00 pm
elsewhence: (arkanoid and vaus)
over a decade's worth of experience with lucid dreaming and only now had a waking-induced lucid dream completely on purpose (as opposed to randomly snapping back into conscious awareness when i was about to start dreaming). actually a useless skill because dreams i enter that way always start in a shitty knockoff of my bedroom and then i have to waste time on getting somewhere that isn't a shitty knockoff of some other part of the real world, and i have no idea how to make them start somewhere actually interesting instead. and it actually annoys me so much i usually just wake myself up and hope that maybe i'll get a spontanous, more interesting lucid dream later. still pretty cool though. i fell asleep and remained completely conscious and remember every second of the process! take that, everyone who told me that it's impossible to remember falling asleep when i was a tiny kid.

(also, on some level, this whole "end up in shitty dream copies of my bedroom" deal makes me understand why people would believe in astral projection. but on the other hand, the fact that it's specifically shitty copies makes me drop right back into "why would you even consider that this might be real" territory. i mean honestly, even closed-eyed visualisation while i'm awake does a better job...)

Aug. 7th, 2016 02:25 pm
elsewhence: (arkanoid and vaus)
brain attempts to dream about pregnancy, kay almost immediately recognises this as something that can't possibly be real and must therefore be a dream, demands that this particular dream end right now and everything related to it literally dissolves. then goes off to have some sort of vaguely remembered but doubtlessly awesome adventure with the twelfth doctor instead.

this series of events defines me perfectly.

May. 7th, 2016 03:17 pm
elsewhence: (Default)
wonder if the fact that written text often does make sense in my dreams is connected to the fact that i learned to read when i was a tiny four-year-old kay, meaning there isn't any point in my conscious memory when writing was incomprehensible scribbling to me. though it could just be, you know, the way there's no reality check that always works. they're suitable reality checks because they're things that can change in dreams in ways that aren't possible in the real world, not because they're guaranteed to. like say mirrors in my dreams have never showed anything that didn't make sense. i sometimes amuse myself in lucid dreams by creating a mirror and looking away and back and having my brain come up with random outfits. "okay brain, now do a regency era outfit! no, one with a fancy long train! yes, that one's cool. ooh, how about a navy blue one now. with velvet. and embroidery." dreaming me is easy to entertain even when she's conscious of the fact that none of what's happening is real.

can confirm though that light switches still don't work properly if you understand the way they work perfectly well. there's just something fundamentally mysterious about electricity in dreams. i mean, i haven't tried to actively visualise the connection that the switch should make or break, because i don't get lucid dreams nearly as easily as i did when i was a teen...

(dreams do totally give you useful information though. i dreamt about the skirt i'm working on tonight and about finding a different way to do the pockets and you know what, that would actually be less work and look better. gives some credence to the theory that dreams are a way to work out and practice real world problems. the key being, of course, that the solution doesn't involve any techniques i haven't used before. i just didn't consciously think to combine them that way.)

Oct. 23rd, 2015 11:22 pm
elsewhence: (guide text adventure)
also i'm officially calling bullshit on the whole "you can only dream about faces you've seen before!" thing. i'm completely certain i've never seen anyone with four eyes.

Aug. 11th, 2015 10:54 pm
elsewhence: (jawa harmless)
lucid dreams totally aren't qualitatively different from regular dreams in some way though, amirite. no, we still can't prove whether someone having a lucid dream is truly conscious, but as i've said before, that's only because we also can't prove whether someone who is awake is truly conscious...

Aug. 5th, 2015 04:39 am
elsewhence: (shut my eyes)
actually, why are some people so dead set on proving that they're really, truly conscious during lucid dreams. i mean i can't even prove that i'm really, truly conscious when i'm awake. that's the nature of subjective experience. the best anyone can do is to check whether the brain does different things during times people report they remember as lucid dreams than during times they report they remember as regular dreams, and draw whatever conclusions they may. (spoiler: the answer is yes.)

Jul. 18th, 2015 09:11 pm
elsewhence: (jawa harmless)
i want some data on the relationship between people thinking that dreams are inherently incoherent and nonsensical and their memory skills while awake. wouldn't be surprised if there was something there. of course a dream would be more likely to seem incoherent if dream-you wasn't able to retain memories of what had happened to them only a few minutes ago, making everything seem to come out of nowhere! or if it's not memory, there must be something else, because i swear i've never had any dreams that didn't have a somewhat logical progression of events...

May. 1st, 2015 05:20 pm
elsewhence: (shut my eyes)
ahaha it's just plain funny when your dreaming brain tries to scare you with something it considers an authority figure or a threat, but you know perfectly well that none of it is real and laugh the supposedly scary thing down and threaten it instead. it's my dream, my home ground, i'm the ultimate power here!

the relatively few lucid dreams i still get are so worth it.

Jan. 22nd, 2015 01:57 am
elsewhence: (shut my eyes)
last night i looked at my hands in a dream and the way they looked made perfect sense. didn't turn obviously nonsensical (too many fingers) until i explicitly expected them to. took over a decade for this one to fail for the first time, but it did. no such thing as a perfect reality check that'll always provide an obviously impossible outcome in every single dream! which is actually a good thing, i guess, how could a conviction that actions exist that are just fundamentally impossible in dreams possibly not have negative effect on your ability to influence said dreams...

Dec. 28th, 2014 06:41 am
elsewhence: (look out of the window)
actually come to think of it the episode also showed another real, not reality check as such, but thing that's useful for lucid dreamers. ask yourself, where are you, how did you get there, what are you doing right now, when did you start, what were you doing before that, can you manage a rough summary of the last few hours. doesn't work as a reality check because haven't we all had that kind of dream where you're in a place that doesn't even exist in the real world but "remembered" having been there before, the brain is perfectly capable of filling in fake memories, but it's useful in learning the right sort of mindset. and also if you're dreaming and already conscious enough to suspect so, the odds are pretty good that you'll notice that events don't fit together right. on a broader scale, it's also useful to try and remember your name, your birthday, where you live, generally details about real life, it helps kick your memory into working the way it does while awake (though apparently it can also cause some people to wake up and hey, how about that, the episode had a bit of that too)...

haha this episode probably wasn't nearly as enjoyable for people who have no experience with lucid dreaming, was it. i wonder whether it was intentionally written to mirror the real thing? i think it probably must have been, seems like it would've resorted to the old pinching as a reality check deal otherwise. i fully expected that to crop up and was pleasantly surprised that it didn't, actually. and also that it didn't try to paint the ability to consciously navigate dreams as some sort of time lord superpower (even though it totally sounds like one, haha) - sure, the doctor seemed to have a pretty decent idea of what he was doing, but that's very plausibly just a matter of experience. i mean he must be over 2000 years old by now if you account for all those unseen stretches of time, it'd be stranger if he hadn't encountered the concept at some point. unless time lords simply weren't capable of it, i guess, but they obviously are. (that's a plot twist i'm still waiting for, where it turns out that there's some seemingly completely ordinary thing that humans can do and time lords can't. i mean, we've had the reverse plenty of times already.)

Dec. 27th, 2014 06:31 am
elsewhence: (Default)
actually correction, i'm pretty sure the reason i don't like reality checks of that general category is because being able to use them depends so heavily on what you're already dreaming about. written text, digital clocks, mirrors, lightswitches, what are you going to do if there simply aren't any of these around? either you go looking for one, in which case good luck not just getting swept right back up with the dream's plot and completely forgetting about the reality check, or you create one, in which case the fact you're able to do so is already plenty enough of a sign that you're dreaming. assuming that you're successful, of course, since if you're not certain it's a dream and therefore not certain it should work, it might just not. both of the ones i routinely use rely on things you always have with you, because they're part of your body...

also the bit where the doctor took the reins of santa's sleigh really was basically exactly how someone having a lucid dream would act and it was adorable.

Dec. 26th, 2014 12:22 am
elsewhence: (Default)
that was actually a pretty good episode! i approve.

why would you use such a horrendously complicated reality check though, doctor. seriously. if you're going to use written text as a reality check, all you need to do is look at it and expect it to not make any sense! or look away, look back and expect it to have changed! if anything i'd expect the way he did it to have failed, since if they were telepathically connected in some vaguely explained way, surely the contents of these books could've ended up synched up. i wouldn't risk it.

(or how about you don't rely on this reality check at all, seriously. it fails so easily. the only one i get even worse results from is looking in a mirror, i never see anything that doesn't make sense. i'm generally not a fan of the "look at something and expect it not to make sense" set of reality checks. except looking at your hands, i guess, that one is pretty reliable.)

at least he seemed to have a pretty decent idea about dream control. very decent actually, since apparently he didn't just know that manipulating a dream is all about expectations, he even attempted to make something happen that everyone involved was already primed consider plausible, because it had already happened once, which would make it much easier. nice going on that bit.

Oct. 25th, 2014 04:55 am
elsewhence: (shut my eyes)
i want more lucid dreams. i had two last weekend, but that's nothing compared to the frequency i was able to get about ten years ago. and with basically no effort at all, too. >:( i'm going to assume it's because the brain doesn't become fully mature until the mid-twenties and mine ended up pruning something i'd actually rather have liked to keep. stupid brain...

Aug. 26th, 2014 01:39 am
elsewhence: (la linea complaints)
take a nap, have a drawn-out dream about writing a really cool exciting epic story, specifically dream about saving it regularly, only of course that's utterly pointless because it's a dream. ugh.

also vaguely on the subject of dreams, apparently i get more of a dream-improving effect from vitamin B12 when i take cyanocobalamin, even though methylcobalamin is supposed to work better for that purpose. whatever. B6 is kind of a lost cause though, taking it first thing after waking up has no effect at all and taking it as early as eight hours before going to sleep just gives me insomnia...

Aug. 4th, 2014 12:09 am
elsewhence: (alligator)
haha my brain still tries anxiety dreams about being late for school and it so completely fails to work. i mean, the last time i went to any sort of school, i was a legal adult and it wasn't part of compulsory education and so my answer to the possibility of being more than a few minutes late was a) not writing a test on that day? okay, cool, fuck that, staying home, b) writing a test on that day? get a sick note so i can write it on some other day, also staying home. and so i realise it can't be reality every single time i have a dream that tries to make it out to be a big scary thing...

(one time i was able to take a test i'd missed without a sick note because i guess the teacher just assumed that someone with grades as good as mine must necessarily be a super responsible person who'd never even consider missing a test without a good reason? hahahaha. dude, i missed a quarter of a whole semester in bits and pieces just because i could. you'll never convince me that it's possible for a thing to be wrong that has no negative consequences.)

May. 20th, 2014 12:19 am
elsewhence: (universe next door)
people who claim that all dreams are nonlinear and disjointed and lack a coherent plot until you wake and try to read one into them, and at the same time freely admit they only remember bits and pieces of their dreams... ???

i had a very detailed and complex dream about running around having some sort of adventure with river song last night, which is equally ???. why would i dream about her. :

Apr. 20th, 2014 07:51 pm
elsewhence: (beauty)
oh apparently flaxseed oil can also cause vivid dreams? i really just started taking it because it's supposed to be good for your skin, but that's not a side effect i'm complaining about! not being able remember much of your dreams is so weird, i don't know how anyone considers that normal...

Mar. 2nd, 2014 06:12 am
elsewhence: (shut my eyes)
okay, but do people realise that waking-initiated lucid dreaming is essentially a matter of pretending to be asleep so convincingly that your own brain falls for it. that that's actually something human beings can learn to do, no matter how much it sounds like weird alien sci-fi shit. how is that not the coolest thing ever.

Feb. 19th, 2014 06:43 pm
elsewhence: (ten science bitches)
okay, but then how is it that basically anyone can train to remember their dreams? there's a lot of people who attempt to get lucid dreams and take a long time to succeed, but i've never heard of anyone who attempted to improve their dream recall and couldn't do it at all. clearly this difference between people who remember a lot of dreams and ones who don't can't be hardwired, it must be something you can purposely get your brain to do differently.

i'm also kind of dubious about the claim that the sleeping brain isn't capable of memorising new information. i mean, how would you ever be able to remember more of any dream than the little snippet that was going on in the precise moment you woke up if that was the case? doesn't sound plausible to me.

Jan. 21st, 2014 09:06 pm
elsewhence: (great amounts of shit)
i had a lucid dream that tried to pull the whole "okay but if you want X you first have to do Y which requires you to do Z etc etc" number on me that's so easy to lose lucidity over and just refused to play along. i'm so proud of myself. which probably sounds silly, but even a conscious dreaming mind is so irritatingly easy to fool sometimes.

basically i need to make sure to always tell dream characters to do X now and shut the fuck up if they start talking about Y or Z. being nice to them is a stupid idea, who even came up with that bullshit.