Jul. 16th, 2017 05:03 pm
elsewhence: (guide text adventure)
man, stop accusing people of being afraid of change as if that was something to be ashamed of. of course we've afraid of change, in the end we're still primates following the same instincts primates developed millions of years ago! the point you should be appealing to is that unlike most animals, we choose to go against our instincts! i've been doing it for three months, by eating substantially less than i would need to maintain my weight. from the point of view of my instincts, i'm purposely starving myself! from the point of view of my instincts, there's no telling whether there will ever be enough food again! if it's possible to do that without much effort, other instincts shouldn't be that different.

(and for as frustrated as i get with the lack of progress: i've already lost over 15 kg, left triple digits and returned from obese class II to obese class I. all with the motivation of "there will be more clothing to choose from". that's why fat shaming doesn't work and is therefore doubly unjustified, you never know what actually will end up motivating someone. conventional attractiveness obviously wasn't a big point for me. why would it be when i don't even understand this apparent drive to have to be in a relationship...)

Jul. 15th, 2017 12:47 pm
elsewhence: (r2-d2 fail)
nope, rogue one is still boring fake star wars. please stop doing this kind of thing, disney.

Jul. 15th, 2017 02:03 am
elsewhence: (r2-d2 fail)
correction: apparently arsehole kids haven't yet realised that "silence between 10 PM and 6 AM" applies on all days, not just weekdays. i infer from this that they probably also haven't realised it also applies during school holidays.

(though i still think they're just willfully ignoring it. and it will come back to bite them in the arse sooner or later. tenants' rights are strong in germany, but situations like this are one of the few reasons that can ultimately cause you to lose your flat. i hope they lose their flat. i hope their whole family suffers as much disappointment and inconvience as can possibly come out of that. please consider what kind of physical and mental issues constant sleep disturbances can cause. and while i'm currently unemployed, it's not as if i can properly catch up during the day when it's actually perfectly legal for them to scream like idiots at that time. starts up pretty much the moment they come home from school. seriously, when do these cunts sleep??)

(i seriously wonder whether their parents actually believe that there's no way they could ever get into trouble because of noisy children. newsflash, that's only true as long as said children are babies or toddlers, you're expected to do your best to keep them quiet during the night as soon as they're old enough to understand and follow instructions. the offenders are teenagers.)

Jul. 13th, 2017 03:31 am
elsewhence: (arkanoid and vaus)
i'm playing commander keen 4 and holy fuck it's difficult. how did i beat this when i was eight years old and using keyboard controls?? nevermind the way the game sometimes just forgets that you've already picked up a certain gem when you die and doesn't provide a new one, uugh

Jul. 10th, 2017 06:36 pm
elsewhence: (r2-d2 fail)
current weight: 100 g more than last monday. even though once again i created enough of a deficit to lose about 1 kg of fat. stupid worthless piece of shit of a body.

(anyone who tells me to ~*love your body*~ is automatically disqualified from having their opinion considered. ~*loving my body*~ won't make my clothes fit better. ~*loving my body*~ won't make a larger range of clothing available to me in the first place. ~*loving my body*~ won't take the weight off my joints. ~*loving my body*~ won't do anything about adult acne that has improved significantly since i started losing weight. ~*loving my body*~ won't negate the fact that i could've cut my starting weight in half and still been considered healthy. "body positivity" has turned into just as much of a toxic, useless mess as modern feminism.)

(and maybe it's a sign i should switch to weighing myself daily. i mean, maybe my weight already was down and i'll never know.)

Jul. 9th, 2017 05:06 am
elsewhence: (warning it's raining men)
it honestly seems like arsehole neighbours routinely leave their children at home alone during the night and therefore are just plain not able to supervise what they get up to (like screaming at their gaming buddies through teamspeak for hours on end and making it impossible for their neighbours to get restful sleep), and i'm so looking forward to all the trouble that could get them into. i mean look, from what i've been able to glean, the two who are causing the problem are 13 and 14-15, and their younger sister is 10 at the very most? it would be okay to leave them alone for one night every once in a while, but not on a regular basis...

what a shining example of people who should not have had nearly as many children as they actually did. they're clearly not qualified for parenting. i mean, i think the reason they're not around every night is because of their jobs and not anything unsavoury, but if your jobs make it impossible for at least one of you to be home with your children every night, they are the wrong fucking jobs. you gave up the luxury of being able to pick the highest-paying job no matter what the working conditions are when you decided to reproduce!

Jul. 8th, 2017 03:26 am
elsewhence: (great plan)

look at this great TARDIS key. finally found a new one in this size after the old one broke due to being used as a keychain. i don't think this one would, looks to be solid aluminium! not going to risk it though. and of course two days after i decided to cave in and pay 14.90€, the shop started a 20% off sale. oh well.

i sure wish there'd be another theatre event sometime.

Jul. 7th, 2017 07:12 am
elsewhence: (r2-d2 surprised)
so there's a recentish set of digimon adventure 02-themed digimon figurines that also includes terriermon and lopmon? i'm in favour of this! i'll probably always love movie 3 and therefore love anything that acknowledges its existance. i mean, technically wallace's terriermon had a slightly different colour scheme, the green bits were more of a minty shade than what's depicted here, but i'll take what i can get

Jul. 7th, 2017 03:37 am
elsewhence: (arkanoid and vaus)
also weird and inexplicable to me - this apparent obsession with preventing and punishing underaging drinking in the US. i'm pretty sure that if i tried to, say, call the police on a 16-year-old because he had a bottle of vodka, they'd just laugh at me! i estimate that he'd end up with a stern talking to and no vodka at worst, if anyone even bothered to show up, it's just far too insignificant to do anything else about! actually i doubt that even that would happen, because the law states that it's illegal for people below 18 years of age to buy hard liquor or consume it in public, not to merely have it in their posession. and despite those generally more relaxed drinking laws, our young adults somehow manage to not all die off in car accidents, hmm

Jul. 4th, 2017 12:49 pm
elsewhence: (guide text adventure)

so, how about that circular gallifreyan-inspired writing system i invented because i didn't feel like learning about op-amps. what if i played with it some more? what if i first developed a way to somewhat easily draw it on the computer (can't really call it writing yet) and then modified it? i think i've probably already made enough changes that you can't completely decipher it using the original notes...

i'd really love to make a font of it eventually, but haha, that would be such a mess of combining symbols. probably possible, but worth it?

i'm honestly really proud of the whole thing. it's not very practical, but definitely aesthetically pleasing, and also actually has interesting mechanics and isn't just a shitty cipher for the english alphabet

Jun. 30th, 2017 05:08 pm
elsewhence: (petty bickering)
man, the whole "punch a nazi" thing is straight out of the playground, it's so fucking embarassing

Jun. 27th, 2017 02:08 am
elsewhence: (Default)
and now i weigh 0.8 kg more than i did a week ago even though i created enough of a caloric deficit to lose almost a kilogram! i know why though, water retention caused by hormonal changes. seriously, fuck the female reproductive system, it accomplishes literally nothing positive.

i won't give in though, i'll still only weigh myself once a week.

Jun. 26th, 2017 06:44 pm
elsewhence: (great plan)
you know, you've got to wonder why you don't see the fourth doctor's companions struggle to keep up with him more often. i mean, my father's 1.96 m tall, i'm 1.70 m, and he's constantly running away from me without even meaning to simply because his legs are so much longer

Jun. 26th, 2017 05:44 am
elsewhence: (Default)
"the gems clearly identify as female!"

oh, i must just have missed all these instances of gems stating that they are women, then

"they use feminine pronouns for themselves!"

funny, i wasn't aware that english made a gender distinction in the first person singular

Jun. 20th, 2017 09:29 am
elsewhence: (silly ikea person)
i somehow managed to get a sunburn only on the outside of my lower arms and hands. not the upper arms, not the fingers. what did i do??

Jun. 19th, 2017 06:57 pm
elsewhence: (guide text adventure)
oh come on, kohl just happened to be in the right place at the right time. you don't seriously believe he would've remained chancellor for sixteen fucking years without that particular bit of luck?

Jun. 19th, 2017 09:05 am
elsewhence: (jawa harmless)
i predicted that my weight would drop below 100 kg once my bust measurement decreased to 105 cm, lo and behold, the scale says 98.4 kg. that's completely naked and with mostly empty bladder and bowels. the relationship between my bust measurement and weight is just as linear as it seemed. maybe this would be even more satisfying if i knew just how much i weighed to begin with, but since my bust measurement was 113 cm, and i now know it's a linear relationship, i can guess. dropping about 15 kg in three months isn't bad at all.

it's also very satisfying that i predicted 105 cm would equal precisely 98 kg and was so close. and hell, it could even still be completely accurate! there could be a slight measurement error on my part, or the bra i need to wear to be able to measure my bust in the first place could have added a little bit of width...

also, 8 cm down = 2 clothing sizes down :D

Jun. 18th, 2017 02:55 am
elsewhence: (r2-d2 fail)
i am sure as hell not buying pokémon ultrasun/ultramoon if there's any risk of more lillie. seriously, she was the single biggest problem with pokémon sun/moon. i hate her, i want to cliff her, uuugh.

seriously, how did they manage to turn out such a bad game after the awesome pokémon X/Y.

Jun. 18th, 2017 01:48 am
elsewhence: (jawa harmless)
accurately tracked my calories for a couple of days (as opposed to just roughly keeping track inside my head, which has apparently been good enough so far) and it's actually worryingly easy for me to undercut the intake i'd need to maintain my weight by huge amounts. i swear i never feel hungry though! and i swear i tracked everything, down to the smallest amounts like diet soda or a single boiled sweet! yet one day i had to make an effort to get over 1200 kcal. i'll want to keep an eye on that.

(also my diet is actually not healthy at all, haha. it's still full of processed foods and artificial sweeteners. and i still spend most of the day sitting on my arse. you need a healthy diet and exercise to lose weight my ass. that bullshit is how you stop people from trying in the first place.)